Month: December 2018
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I asked for help(medication to help with focusing). I expect it should work out positively. And if not, at least it will be an answered question. Uncertainty is my Kryptonite. I’ve been obsessed with how things work for as long as I can remember. Fair to say that my curiosity is a consequence of the…
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Maybe I need a few more failures to secure my dream epitaph. Is that a thing? A dream epitaph? Here are some ideas I have: He tried…at everything…seriously He was fearless He didn’t believe in limits May he rest after punching up Heaven’s Welcome Packet He took you for a ride if you asked him…
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I like stories. I have always appreciated how a story can emphasize a point. Outliers: The Story of Success* by Malcolm Gladwell has been one of my favorite books because of this format. I’m writing a book. First, I decided on the why of the book. The who was tricky, but I knew I wouldn’t…
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Today I woke up with the song in my head What You Won’t Do for Love by Bobby Caldwell. I like to think songs get stuck up there randomly, but who knows? I still try to rationalize a song’s significance – every time. In my reading into the chorus, I remembered an epiphany I had…
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1998 was a good year. 2018 was pretty damn good too. My military career is finished, but this doesn’t feel like the end of anything except wearing a uniform. When I transitioned into the military 20 years ago, I was excited but terrified. Leaving the military, I feel like that kid all over again but…
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It was clear to me very soon after retirement, maybe even before, that I could not rely on my feelings for motivation. In fact, I can’t rely or wait on motivation either. For me, the trial period is over. I’m convinced that waiting until I feel up for writing, designing, coding, or completing a course…
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Yesterday, chatting with a friend overseas, I described the thoughts I have most mornings. To paraphrase: when I wake up, I think about all the things I want to create or finish. All of the things. And that shouldn’t be a problem. But it’s overwhelming – even if for a few minutes – to think…
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I like to make a big deal online about my birthday. It’s equal parts entertaining myself and being ironic. I’ve been retired from the military for 3 months, but it feels like I’m on leave indefinitely with a lumberjack’s beard. If I had to describe my mental, I’m lingering between what I should be doing…